I feel like I'm stuck.... My head plans to do things but I can't seem to find the time or energy to do things. It seems so long since I blogged. Sometimes I think, what's the point in having a blog? Remember in Janurary I had that crazy ass month of positivity!? I used to post my '3 good things' every day, I was exercising, eating well. It was great! Then my dad was rushed into hospital and also some people viewing their (unwanted) opinions on our wedding totally knocked me sideways and I just haven't been able to get back to that positive outlook.
Earlier in the month we decided to adopt some kitties. It was such a massive step and so many mixed emotions all round. Ill do a separate post about our little halflings Spooky & Ulla! They are super awesome. After 6 days of having them though they become really ill with cat flu. This past week has been hell. We lost our beautiful Ruby in June and to finally take that step and adopt again was intense and then this happens and there was a risk they would die. Horrific!
Seriously though, I want to hide away somewhere quiet. Just Me, my husband and 2 kitties. No Internet, no phones, no nothing. Just books, DVDs, art/craft supplies! We are off next week and I'm hoping to try control some of this anxiety when away from day to day life.
This is kinda random but on the same anxiety/hideaway subject. Does anyone just hate the Internet/social networks we are all so addicted to? Yet another thing that adds to my anxiety. I wish if was easy and I could just delete them all. Some days I feel I'm always trying to prove I'm a nice person to you know, those people who think they are a cut above the rest. Why I let people like that bother me I don't know. Well I do kinda know because I have this whole 'I wanna be liked' social anxiety.
Anyway this post wasn't meant to be all about anxiety. I don't even know what it's about. I just know that there's things I'm not happy with and I want to change. But I also need to remember the good in my life, like my amazing husband, kitties and family.
I'll leave you with some kitty pics, cos let's face it. Who doesn't like cute kitties?